Forget regret - your life is yours to miss (Rent Soundtrack)
Life could be so simple - get up in the morning, run, feel good... repeat!
I'm just back from my run on the indoor track at the Y. Coffee is brewing. Sun is shining. I could only manage a slow 6-7 km. Natch, my inclination was to go negative - too slow, too fat, blah blah blah... The truth is otherwise.
On the walk home, listening to my IPod, I heard the line cited in the title of this post - Forget regret - your life is yours to miss... and I remember that I very nearly missed mine. A few years ago, I didn't much care if I lived or died. All of my friends had long died of AIDS, I was unemployed, lost, humiliated by life, I couldn't run down the block, I smoked heavily, did more than my fair share of drugs and destroyed my soul with cheap and meaningless sex...
And now somehow... [God?]
I've quit smoking and eat healthy most days of the week (despite the fight I had last night with the pizza), I have a great job in one of Toronto's most prestigious law firms that I really like most days of the week, I'm training for the marathon that I believe that I can run, in fact, I believe in the possibility of lots of things.... in short, I'm pretty happy on most days of the week. It's trite to say that the glass is more than half full...
I survived. I owe it to my friends who didn't to live my guts out and not to miss the life that I have. I'm trying not to.
And like I said... life should be easy... get up... run... be happy... repeat....
I'm just back from my run on the indoor track at the Y. Coffee is brewing. Sun is shining. I could only manage a slow 6-7 km. Natch, my inclination was to go negative - too slow, too fat, blah blah blah... The truth is otherwise.
On the walk home, listening to my IPod, I heard the line cited in the title of this post - Forget regret - your life is yours to miss... and I remember that I very nearly missed mine. A few years ago, I didn't much care if I lived or died. All of my friends had long died of AIDS, I was unemployed, lost, humiliated by life, I couldn't run down the block, I smoked heavily, did more than my fair share of drugs and destroyed my soul with cheap and meaningless sex...
And now somehow... [God?]
I've quit smoking and eat healthy most days of the week (despite the fight I had last night with the pizza), I have a great job in one of Toronto's most prestigious law firms that I really like most days of the week, I'm training for the marathon that I believe that I can run, in fact, I believe in the possibility of lots of things.... in short, I'm pretty happy on most days of the week. It's trite to say that the glass is more than half full...
I survived. I owe it to my friends who didn't to live my guts out and not to miss the life that I have. I'm trying not to.
And like I said... life should be easy... get up... run... be happy... repeat....
posted by Scott at 10:10 AM
4 Comments:
Sometimes life works out in crazy and amazing ways. Sounds like you've come a long way--and the best is yet to come!
Just found your blog. Very interesting! Run Strong! (I still haven't seen Rent - but intend to.)
If you can get through law school to get to a law firm, you can do a marathon :)
Thanks all. Just a note - although I work in a law firm, I'm a litigation law clerk, not a lawyer. I could get in real trouble if I didn't clear that up. Cliff's sentiment still rings true though, and I am grateful nonetheless, as I am for all the support that I am receiving through this blog.
I am completely blown away by the positive energy.
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