Monday, May 22, 2006

Back again, only different than before....

If you want a taste of something really delicious, I recommend that you read TriSaraTops' post about pacing the Clevland Marathon and then IronBenny's tribute to his wife Nytro and the Hoyt's.

These two posts serve to remind me that any happiness that I can muster, is, in some measure, rooted in GRATITUDE and PERSPECTIVE. Both of which are concepts that I need to be reminded of often.

After reading TriSaraTops' post, I got to thinking about the train wreck that was my life several years ago in contrast to my current life situation vis-a-vis the fact that my body isn't exactly co-operating with my marathon dreams. Well, SO WHAT? I'm lucky that I'm even alive.

Having the right perspective allows me to remember, not what I can't do, but rather, what I can.

I can still walk and jog on the treadmill, it looks like I will be able to play at least some tennis this summer, I've found a great new chiropractor/accupressurist (aka GOD), and I can do yoga and core strengthening exercises (even if I find the latter boring beyond measure). It is all good.

Moreover, by simply staying focused on this reality, I can live a totally active life this summer which will, in my experience, lead to dramatic weight loss without a lot of hand wringing and gnashing of teeth (or being an asshole to the video/cable store clerk).

Who knows, maybe in 2009 when I'm running the Boston Marathon (as I have jokingly committed to do with Rae)I will be writing about how far I've come since the the spring/summer of 2006.

Speaking of perspective, I need only to remind myself that I have succeeded in quitting smoking. Surely, this bodes well for my marathon dreams.

What I can't quite get my head around though is how one hangs on to all of this good stuff when one is constantly challenged to be more, to do better....? And a question for therapy... how does all of this square with issues of perfectionism, ageing, the development of self-esteem?????

[Aside: On this note, if you have a moment, check out www.luckygreendress.com. From the home page, click on Y'All Merchandise icon to the left, then buy CD, then listen to the song Nothing More. The song is from the movie, Life In A Box which I saw on Sunday at the Toronto Gay and Lesbian Film Festival. I would expect though that the song will resonate with all men, gay or straight.]

The good news is that I'm getting there.

That said, can you imagine what the world would be like if more men could find the courage to express love with the kind of passion that Benny does..... I can.

Today's video is a great Canadian band from Newfoundland, Great Big Sea who I listened to a lot during my vacation.



posted by Scott at 6:55 PM

6 Comments:

Blogger jeanne said...

wow, you said it. I was miss negativity today, someone told me. who knew?
Thanks for the food for thought.

7:33 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

I think we all need to be reminded of Gratitude and Perspective from time to time. Keep up the good work. Boston 2009, You Can Do It!

8:38 PM  
Blogger Papa Tweet said...

Great post. Thanks for the kind words and comments as well. I loved that song. Too bad it doesn't let you listen to the whole thing. I listened to the Y'All song and it mentioned Utah. Go Utah!

You have already overcome the biggest challenge; not smoking. You have come a long way. Way to go. Keep it up Scott, your life is changing.

7:54 PM  
Blogger Toasty said...

forget the destination, just enjoy the journey

3:00 AM  
Blogger Rae said...

Persepctive is everything!! I hate when my bad attitude ruins a day.

We WILL be in Boston in 09!! We might be race bandits or spectators, but we'll be there!! =)

8:01 AM  
Blogger BuckeyeRunner said...

Right on. Thanks for the reminders, Scott.

8:32 AM  

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